nobody likes to hear the brutally cruel truth.

Why is this?

feeling horribly emo today..
Negative thoughts start pouring in…
Fear is swallowing me, slowly.
Probably cos today will be the last off day for the month and I’m gonna slog till month end.
Sad enough :(

Work, got no passion for it and now I’m working like a robot.
Honestly I have no idea what I’m doing.
The reason that I’m staying on?
great colleagues and workplace.
I know I’m due for a transfer soon. My time’s almost up.
Maybe till then I will leave the place and head elsewhere..
I will be reluctant to leave but I guess nobody stays on forever.. People come and go.
Even friends, I guess.
When each has got their own life to live.
I seems a burden to others and why am I in this world being this unnecesarry burden?
Actually I’m not needed. Just an extra.
I got no rights to do anything.

I realised I have much more things to say than I intended to.

I need to party. I need to drink. I need to throw my troubles and negative thoughts away. Okay, those aint a ‘need’. Just an excuse to.

Don’t understand how could one get so petty, selfish and ignorant of how the other party is feeling. All you think of is yourself. Have you ever spare a thought for others? I believe not. Whatever you do is only for yourself. When other people need your help, you just come up with stupid excuses not to help. How could you be so selfish? We are all colleagues and should help each other out right.. You expect other people to help but you have to reciprociate too.. Am I right? When you need help, I help whenever I can too.. Why aren’t you doing your part? And you are behaving in a way that I can’t believe a person of your age should be.. :\ I just hope you will come to your senses some day. If you still gonna be acting so childish, so be it… it really turns me off when you’re being so selfish.

No idea why the sudden decision to blog.. Supposed to be sleeping at this hour or perhaps cos of my yet-to-dry hair since 7pm?

Don’t feel good about something (nope, I’m not sick or anything) I can’t put my finger to it… On what is it that I don’t feel comfortable about. Bad omen? I hope noot. *touch wood.

Nice weather to be rolling on bed, hoping I don’t have to work tomorrow (fat hope) ah well.. Still deciding whether to hit the gym tomorrow and I still got friend’s bday celebration… :\

White bread for breakfast again tomorrow.. Big sigh.. Definitely very very sick of it… :( I need more choices. I need a break…

Teambuilding & chalet

Since the start of this month,  i’ve been seeing my colleagues like 7 days a week (excluding the days that i was on mc.) and it ‘s really fun and all to be doing things together. Rehearsing for the 1 min performance at branch after work, acting like we were animals in the zoo performance with passer bys as ‘audience’ either stop to watch or thinking the bank is still open. (which is apparently madness to think bank is open at 7 plus pm?)

Getting stuffs for teambuilding. In conjunction to our ‘CCA’ which is NCC, we went all the way down to the ‘Army Market’ to get our beret and searching for shorts to match with our top. We spent the whole Sunday (exactly a week before the event) at Bugis Street, trying to search for army patterned shorts only to find them either no size or there wasn’t enough to go around. There are about 10-20 of us who are gonna wear the same bottom. By the near end of the day, we settled the shorts from the Cotton On. We almost had to wear heels boots which Boss wanted us to. It was too last min to get those anyway. We rehearsed like thrice and we were all ‘ready to go’.

The day came and we had to ‘paint’ our face with camo, our face were like watermelons. With green colour and three black ‘lines’ across. Seriously we looked funny. For one thing, we looked almost the same cos of the camo and we dont have to worry about getting ‘recognised’ for the ‘stupid’ things we do. The timing for the teambuilding was absolutely insane at an unimaginable place. To meet at 7.30am (my colleague arrived like 6am, 6.30am?) at a primary school located in Bedok. Half Sunday burnt. Damn. It was tiring and all. Shu Min came over and we had hours of talk. Say, from 1 plus to evening? We had so much to talk, complain, gossip about! By evening, i was going half dead. Flop on the bed after dinner.

Yesterday was Branch chalet, no idea whats the occasion though. Bonding session? Lol. Or maybe to farewell to our CSM who will be promoted soon.. This was the first chalet that i ever left so early, say, about 10 plus? And everybody left too. It was a 5 days chalet and it’s gonna be emptied for the next 3 days.. The place was semi-d. 2 storeys with 4 rooms on the 2nd floor, a car porch and ‘garden’. The place was biggg… lol. Too boring i guess. Didn’t take much of photos but other colleagues was spamming… Let the few photos do the ‘talking’.